I know this pain,
i’ve felt it before,
a constant entity,
in my 30 years of existence.
I’ve lost more in this life,
than I have gained,
all these haunt me,
endlessly.
It comes like a creature in the night,
constantly ringing in my ears,
confusing my mind,
creating fear in me.
I know this pain,
it is guilt, it is sorrow,
it is despair,
it is regret.
I regret my actions.
I yearn for change,
I’m still waiting and hoping,
But is anyone waiting for me.
Is there anyone who loves me ?
Is there anyone searching for me ?
Is there anyone who will save me ?
will she still long for me?
